and again, i probably shouldn't be saying this...

Elias still doesn't know i love him. Mary said she will tell him when she sees him, but she kept asking why i can't just tell him myself. i am very shy with these kinds of things, so that's why i can't tell him to his face... or on the phone, even. it's sad, really. when i love someone, i feel like i can't tell them because they might not love me back. i should probably just call this blog "Diary of a Love Sick Emo". if anyone is reading this, and is still alive despite the stupidity of this, please leave a comment to help me... i need help, badly... thank you.