February Vacation

well, i had a good week. i hung out with Shannon, Bradley, and Jon for a but on Saturday and we got some food at a place that i won't name because then you could find out where i live, then went to a convenience store and got a coke and some mentos... i couldn't stay for the explosion, so i watched it on youtube that night. i went to Old Saybrook from Saturday until Monday, then spent the rest of the week at home. the next Sunday was my sister's birthday, and she had a sleepover party from Saturday to Sunday. i went on a field trip at my meeting house, which is like a church but it's Unitarian Universalist. we went to the Buddhist Center. i assume that there are more than one of those, and i dont even know that that's what it's really called. well, Monday we had now school, so i went to North Hampton. i got a pin, another pin for Bradley that says, "PRODUCT OF A SICK SOCIETY" in red on a black and white striped background, and i got a"Bushisms" poster. it's pretty funny. it has a bunch of quotes from Bush, like "i believe that war is a dangerous place," "if we don't succeed, we run the risk of failure," and "quite frankly, teachers are the only profession that teaches our children," or something like that. oh and there was another one that actually makes some sense: rarely do we ask the question: is our children learning? no shit we don't ask that, we ask are our children learning. he is a serious screw up. another one goes something like this: ...Although, the thought of going to war isn't a very optimistic thought, is it? Basically, thinking of going to war is the opposite of optimistic. hahahaha wow. well, i guess i have to go now...

hellooooooo ... there

yeah. i didn't really know what to name this. i thought that "i'm home sick and the doctor called to see how i was doing and my mom said i was still complaining about my hand and then started about my arm, too, and so she gave me a prescription for some stuff to numb up my arm where i'm gonna get stabbed by a needle" was a little too long. so, i think that about covers it. ... uhhmm... yeah.

so deep that it doesn't even bleed...

All That I've Got, The Used

goody...

well, at my school dance tonight, there were two fights. one involved a knife and a few kids i know, including Mario, Hakeem, and Edwin, all of which (i'm assuming) are in a gang of some sort. well, i think they were involved, because they were sitting out on the bench where the kids in trouble have to sit. the other included a good friend of mine, Bradley, and some gothy kid who's a complete bitch, retard, and he wants to fucking go out with me. ewwwww. sorry, i had to get that out. well, i don't know much about it, because Bradley won't tell me much, just that he got in a fight with him. aha, the gothy kid's name is Dillon or Dylan or however you spell it. well, whatever, no one could care less. i am so transferring. (sorry, that sounded really preppy with the "so," but i used it for emphasis). i hate the school i go to now. i'm gonna tell Scotty about that fight and ask him how many fights including weapons went on at his dance. well, i also heard that at one of the dances last year at my school, someone brought a b.b. gun. no ammo, though. well, i sure feel nice and safe and secure in my school "environment!" and i'm getting a tour at the school i want to go to someday during school so i can see what it's like during school. i'll follow Scotty the whole time, lol. well, i'm out of shit to type, so, goodnight.





















The Cut, Luke Chueh

one big long sentence that's pissing you off

hi i'm in science and there's a sub and she doesn't have a lesson plan so i asked her if i could have free time on my computer and she said no and then i asked her if i could do productive writing on my computer and she said yes and i said hooray and i feel like typing this as one big long sentence and it's pissing you off so i think i'm gonna stop now. ha, now i'm gonna do another one so that i can be stupid and i like unicorns and Shawn asked Emily to ask me if i'm going to the dance tonight and i sad yes, i was, and she said okay and i'm going to the mall after school to get jeans 'cuz i have none that fit me 'cuz i don't wear jeans much and then i'm gonna go to Hot Topic and get a sweatshirt because i had a Green Day one then i ripped it camping at Ferry Beach then i got an Avenged Sevenfold one and that one's getting old and sort of faded and i'm getting out of breath and so are you so why don't i just shut the fuck up now. i had better use spell check for this. oh, and there's a Manson song called The Love Song and it's sort of strange because they are metal last i checked, and part of the song goes, "do you love your guns? yeah. God? yeah. the government? fuck yeah." that doesn't make sense because people who play and listen to metal don't normally love the government, hence me. they also shouldn't love guns, as they kill. they also shouldn't love God, because he doesn't exist. (sorry to all of the believers, that's just what i believe). well, i think i have to go to lunch now (at ten forty five). so, bye bye.

H.I.M

i got away with listening to my iPod in homeroom again. i was listening to H.I.M. and right now, it's playing Rip Out the Wings of a Butterfly... yes, perfect for a vegetarian going somewhat vegan. well, i have to watch the school news soon and i'm supposed to be off now... bye bye, nowww

I'm loyalty, my King of Pain..

your majesty, my royal blue
i'm loyalty my King of Pain.

you've got a funny way of showing of your bathroom surgery...*

never seen arms like yours

never seen scars like yours..**


*what the hell is a bathroom surgery? is he cutting himself in the bathroom?
**that would make sense, after the whole "never seen arms [or scars] like yours" part.

by the way, that's Queen of Pain by Alkaline Trio...well, parts of it... i'll post the full length version some other time...

chickennnnnn *bock bock*

i was too chicken to get the blood tests. they never said they were going to try to fucking stab my arm. well, i guess i'll never know what's going on... my hand's too fucked up to type, so i'm typing with just my left... i'm a righty... and this is really slow going, kind of like a midget freak in three feet of snow... lol, bye bye

another study hall... another pain... fuck

lololololololololol owwwwww. my hand has been killing meeee. i'm leaving school at one o' clock today to go to the doctor. i hope it's not too serious. they are probably going to take some blood tests, though. *cries* yesterday, i was nearly crying while i was doing my homework. it hurt that bad. and don't you dare call me a baby or anything like that. anyways, i will explain in as much detail what happened and what think, but don't hope, is going on.



well, last Sunday afternoon, my hand started hurting really, really bad. it never really stopped. so i put on an ace bandage (like a piece of stretchy-ish cloth that you wrap around your hand, foot, ankle, arm, etc. when it hurts.). that didn't help. neither did Tylenol or ice. on Monday, the school guidance counselor asked me what happened to my hand. (this is the funniest part of it all). i told her, "last night, my hand got bored and it decided that it didn't like me anymore. so it committed suicide, it shot it's self dead, and now it's ghost is haunting me and shooting me in the hand every once-in-a-while." and guess what she told me?! she said, "Andrea, you can't talk like that. if you tell people that, they might take you seriously and send you down to guidance and we'll have to have the same talk we did last time." hahahahah!!!!!! "oh, your hand committed suicide? well, i am going to send your hand down to guidance so we can get it some personal help, why don't we." ha fucking haaaa. what i think is going on, but i hope it isn't, is that i might have ALL. ALL is acute lymphoblastic leukemia. it effects the bone marrow. symptoms are as follows:

• Generalised weakness and fatigue, check
• Anemia, check(or so my dad says)
• Frequent or unexplained fever and infections, check, for fever, anyways
• Weight loss and/or loss of appetite, check, sometimes (it doesn't take a whole lot to fill me up, just a small salad or half a bowl of cereal)
• Excessive bruising or bleeding from wounds, nosebleeds, petechiae (red pinpoints on the skin), ehh... i don't really know... i think so, as i have a pretty bad bruise on my elbow, and i don't know where it came from.
• Bone pain, joint pains, check, check, damn fucking CHECK
• Breathlessness, check, but i also have asthma
• Enlarged lymph nodes, liver and/or spleen, what the hell?!

well, i hope i'm still okay.

if not, i'll tell all you freaks...

okay, i don't know what else to do, so i'll make another picture.. which reminds me, i made a new one...